is better let me leave to this world...

i am feeling pressure for recently!
assignments like cannot finish but keep more and more...
cannot finish assignment on time...
cannot did well for my assignment...
have no body can help me...
the pressure made me can't breathing...

how long i never have a good sleep?
how long i never hang out with my friends?
how long i never enjoy in my life?

when i back to home..
see my brother playing game..
sister back from work will also can enjoy in front computer or date with her friends..
only me..
back from college...
do assignments..
back from work..
do assignments..
my family seems like don't know me...
don't know what i am thinking..
what i am doing...

who care me...
if i have a chance, i hope i never appeared... never...
is better let me leave to this world...

any methods for me

finally... i told my mom...
i need a car...
but i just ask her help me to find a car of second hand.
she ask me...
do you think you can support for my self...
i did not answer her...
i don't know whether i can support or not...
my bank account just have RM 3000 above for now...
just working part time and salary only RM 300 around to RM 600 for a mouth...
can i borrow money from back?
or any methods for me or not...

suicide

4am reach to home...
was get wet in the rain again...
for the first time tried to suicide in the rain...
not because of get wet in the rain,
a lot of trouble i am thinking and getting...
tired life, study life, working life,
time, assignments, a lot of inconvenience in my life and etc...
made me cranky!
is thinking better die now and no need think too much...
i really can't support myself any more...